Posted April 2, 2004
Who am I then?. Well I am just an ordinary guy in my prime. Approaching the time of writing 30 years by leaps. Working in a male-dominated workplace and are extremely interested in sports. I'm straight to my orientation as most other "ordinary" men and transvestites. Actually, well my sexual orientation irrelevant in this, but I still feel that I am due to public ignorance have to clarify it immediately. Personally, I do not care about what people do in bed, it's everyone's own business and make them a better or worse person.
What separates me from most other "normal" boys, is that I am a transvestite ( more about transvetism is available here ).
People ask's not a person skydiving or are wrestling with whether he is gay and therefore they should relax a little as transvestism to homosexuality.
Certainly there are transvestites are homosexuals but there are skydivers and wrestlers who are. Will explain more on what transvestism is on the other side happy and follow the above link for brief info.
As long as I can remember I have always admired and been fascinated by the female.
For school closings during school time, I could feel a bit envious of girls who have beautiful dresses were on it, but we guys always basically looked the same.
While I was in some way already in a very early age to realize that guys could dress in a way, and girls in another. Which guy would you simply do not dress in women's clothing if they refused to make himself a laughing stock. This approach, I alone have got me through what i have seen in the community. At home, I got no impression that I did not try if I wanted, but I was usually too afraid to ask. It felt awkward and wrong in my head to even think I was kid. Therefore, it was many years of secret testing of the mother's clothes in the closet. Something she has never noticed she was later told.
In the summer of 2001 I began to gradually accept myself as a transvestite. That was when I ordered my first package of women's clothing, made contact with other transvestites, etc. for the first time. From being in just over 26 years of my life at all costs avoid trying to reveal my orientation for someone, I could suddenly sit and talk every day with like-minded on the Internet. I suddenly began to believe that it was indeed possible to go out as transvestite. The biggest barriers are released in December of that year when I decided to go on a cross-appointment with Christmas dinner in the small town Överlida. After this, I probably would have been almost absent in at least one thing in my female shape each week.
Every time I did something new, I realized that it actually can be done almost everything even in his female guise. All that in just over 26 years of my life was pure utopia, was suddenly possible.
The challenges succeeded each other from going out at the club at night to go shopping during the day.
Less than a year after the first time out as a girl I went to three newfound friends on the trans hit the Austrian capital Vienna. There was a terrible feeling to go through passport control as a girl and show her male passport.
After the trip, it has also been two further trips abroad both times to London.
What did visit the most famous Trans-friendly clubs and visits to the most famous sights. Latest London trip we also took the opportunity to go on a trip to the legendary Stonehenge. Maybe we were the first transvestite groups there.
More detailed summaries of my trips in female guise you'll find in the diary and images from the same are in the gallery.
21 May 2003, I participated in the filming of a very serious documentary about transvestism and three other Transvestites. I chose to keep a low profile when I did not feel ready to be published. I therefore say nothing in it but is only with the picture now and then. Moa is one of those who talk most of the documentary I had the pleasure of helping to get out of the closet. The rocket went off for her and she chose then shortly thereafter to become one of Sweden's so far rather have completely open transvestites. Also Sara Lund, who was quite famous in southern Sweden since earlier chose to go out openly on TV. At the end of September 2003 was Ask Olle documentary "transvestite - how it works" in the channel 5 and it is probably the best documentary about transvestism made in Sweden.
Public Speaking has never been easy for me but transvestismen has also developed me in this area. On the Stockholm Pride festival in 2003 I was asked to participate in a seminar "transgender" says "something that I first turned down but changed my mind five minutes before and stood up. The seminar was a transsexual MTF (male to female = male to female), a DM FTM (female to male) and a transvestite FTM and so therefore I am a MTF transvestite. I got very good response to what I said at the seminar and I am really glad that I dared to stand in the end.
In 2002 and 2003, I was even able to celebrate New Year with some girl who is now very good friends. I also got the opportunity to realize a dream I had of playing tennis as a woman in 2003.
2003 was also the year when my very near 'normal' friends found out I was a transvestite so today I am living quite openly with it but have not yet felt that I want to go out entirely in public with it yet.
I would also like to thank my parents and friends for now knowing that you could handle knowing and still are my friends. You realized that there is something special about this but I am the same person you always felt.
